Wants and needs suck. I wish I could just have everything.....but life wouldn't be very interesting if you didn't have to work for what you wanted right?
Remember how I said I work at a preschool? Well that's still going on. I get paid three hundred a month and that's only till May. So, lets see, Jan-May that's 5 months, 5*300= 1500
A measly 1500 bucks IF I don't spend on things for me. I'm not talking clothes, makeup and a new pair of earrings. I mean, face wash, tampons, shampoo etc. basic necessities for any girl. I may be stretching it with the face wash, but it falls under MY needs. If you have perfect skin, well then.....I hate you. You also may not need that, maybe you need....I dunno, socks? Anyway, we all have our basic needs. Once a months all my needs will cost me around thirty bucks. Not a lot, but lets subtract now. 5*30=150 1500-150=1350.
Now I'm down to about 1350. Yay. So overall without spending on any "wants" for five months I'll only have $1350. That doesn't buy shit. Not to mention gas driving to work. (Which I now don't have to worry about because I don't drive. That's coming up)
So a new goal of mine NEW JOB BEFORE MAY. My plan? Look everywhere. I guess that's all I can do. I know you SB's may be reading this and thinking.......just explain the situation to a pot SD. Maybe he'll help. Well I can't do that yet. Meeting future SD's has to be extremely discreet.
Why is that? Well, I'm eighteen. Not even eighteen and a half yet. I still live with my parents. Who of course have no idea I want to be a Sugar Baby. I'm sure my mother would have a heart attack if I was honest and told her. I don't give a shit what my stepfather thinks. It's not like he's never said that's the only way I'll ever get a man before. I'm mainly looking out for my mom in all this. She doesn't need to know nor does she ever have to. My dilemma of living there, is how freakin' hard it is to keep it a secret. I can't talk on the phone with my best friend about it in fear of someone hearing. I constantly delete my history on my laptop in fear that somebody will use it without asking. Then, what pops up? Oh only Sugardaddyforme.com. I'm paranoid that if I give an SD my cell number I'll leave it somewhere and he'll call. Then a family member picks up the phone. WTF do I do then? It's to much stress and paranoia. So, a new goal of mine is to MOVE OUT ASAP. My plan? Try to find a cheap place that isn't in the ghetto. The cheapest place I can find is a studio apartment for $900 a month. If I save up until May with my current job....I'll be able to afford one month. So, I need to get another job and keep looking for cheaper apartments.
Now, another thing with meeting a pot SD is getting there. Since I don't even have my permit. Go ahead.....laugh. I know, it should have gotten care of a long time ago. It's my fault and my mothers. She didn't want me to grow up, when I learned and read the stupid MVA books I wanted to take the test. She said no, and then finally agreed. Then it was just a thing that she put off....month after month of telling me "we'll do it later" or "we can't afford driving school right now" When she could have just drivin me down to take the damn test. It's also my fault, because I should have gotten off my ass and fought for what I wanted. It's about time I learn how to do that. This is my life, and I'm in it for me. Not anyone else. I love my family and my friends. But in the end, I'm all I've got. So, my new goal is to GET MY PERMIT. My plan? Hopefully I'll be going to tomorrow. My best friend may be the one taking me, since EVERY TIME, I ask my mother to take me she says "Okay....just let me do this" (four hours later) "Oh.....I didn't know you meant now....well I'm tired I don't feel like going anywhere, we'll do it some other time." Just to let you know, "Some other time" is my mothers code for "When pigs fly"
Now, as for my cell number being out there with pot SD's.....my parents still pay the bill. They refuse to let me pay it, I know why. They want access to my information. They can see who I call, and for how long. View my texts, they can see everything. I've never done anything wrong with my phone. I wasn't the type of teenage girl who got caught sending dirty texts or pictures. I never ran my bill up so high that they had to put a limit of minutes on my phone. I'm pretty good when it comes to using that little device. I'm not a big texter, I find it boring. So....I'm confident my parents don't go snooping through my phone info. Though they have before. Anyway, I need my own phone. That way if an SD calls me, only I know about it. Period. Nobody else. I also HATE at&t. Which is my current phone carrier. They suck. Bad. So, my new goal is GET MY OWN CELL PHONE AND PAY MY OWN BILL. My plan, get a new job, so I have money to do this. Everything costs money -.- everything is a need versus a want. I hate it......but like I said before....it makes our lives a hell of a lot more interesting.
If any of yoy Sugar Babies have advice to share let me know! Comment or email me. That'd be great ^^
Thursday, December 30, 2010
My best friend is.....
Amazing. She has always been there for me, since I can remember even knowing her she's had my back. I've always had hers too. Like I said in my very first post, she had been on the fence of this whole Sugar Baby thing. I can't blame her, suddenly your best friend who's like a sister calls you up and says "Hey! I wanna be a Sugar Baby!" what's the first thing that come to mind? for all you SB's out there, you would think "Great! Now she'll know what I gow through, we can grow stronger and I can have someone to really talk with." Well, to someone who isn't an SB, (like me....I'm not one yet) my first thought would be, "Why? Why do you need to? Or even want to?" and I'm sure that's what she thought to. I just remember her saying over and over, "K, if you do this, please be safe about it" It was like she was saying I was stupid. Not that she meant it like that, and I know that. She only meant it because she was just trying to look out for me.
Then I would try to talk to her about it, being an SB and all. She would listen and it felt great to have someone to actually speak to. God knows I don't know any real SB's I've met a few online but no "real life" girls who do this. I told her about a guy offering to pay for me to come up to NY to meet him. She seemed in awe of that, "Oh my god....." she had said "Tell him your best friend wants to come along......" She of course had been joking. It was still nice to have positive feedback. Now I'm getting mail from all over the place! I'm not sure if I should be worried or thrilled to have all of these potential SD's. I'm a little scared all of these people are giving me their phone numbers and personal information. It's quite daunting but.......I like it. Is that weird?
Another guy recently messaged me saying "looking for a bright, articulate and cute young woman to be my sugar baby. Read your profile and i have do doubt we would hit it off. Would bet we share many of the same interests. Love the beach and the water. Use to own horses and was an avid rider. Love the movies, cooking (own a spice and extract company), reading and exploring new cities, museums etc.I had a sugar baby for three years and we had a great time together. Took her to Europe, Mexico and all over the US. On our last trip to Europe we came home on the Queen Mary. If we hit it off would be looking to have you travel with me." Now....that sounds amazing. Museums was actually what caught my eye. Not the traveling, (though that would def. be an added perk!) I would love a guy who's truly interested in History as I am. I responded, telling him I'd love to talk, (meaning the computer.....I don't think I'm ready for a guy I met online to have my cell number) and he gave me his cell number asking me to tell him all about me and maybe text a picture so he could see what I looked like. Again....that's something I just can't do right now. I almost feel like I'm leading these guys on. I'll tell you why I can't in the next post. This is me ranting about my awesome best friend now x3
When I read her that message she said "Wow.....that sounds really cool....someone to travel with. He took his last Sugar Baby to Europe? Jeez! If you go with anybody it should be him!" again, she was joking but it was still nice to hear someone tell me he sounded nice. And that maybe I should try to get to know him. Well today we went to the mall, exchanging Christmas gifts and using up gift cards (and I don't care what anyone says, gift cards rock! People always say it's the lazy way out. Nuhuh! I can get what I actually want, not what you think I want.) while we went there (It's about a little more then an hours drive to our mall.) I told her all about what I wanted and if I could try to achieve it. I was expecting her to just be a good listener, mumble a few "yeahs" and "I understand" just let me get a few things off of my chest. Instead she got into the conversation. Was asking questions, and listening to the things I had learned about SB and SD relationships. Then she even told me she'd take me to meet them, that way I had somebody there. We wouldn't have to tell anyone that I knew her. She could just be there, wherever we decided to go. "I'll take you and just be a spy....I'll sit in the back of wherever and get a newspaper and every time you guys look at me I'll put the paper in front of my face. Oh! and I can buy wigs! I'll change my outfits and stuff.....this is going to be AWESOME!" At first it was just a joke, and we laughed for about ten minutes. Joking about if the date went wrong she'd just come out of nowhere and we'd take off. Then she told me she'd really do it. Holy shit! What? Really? "Yeah.....long as I'm paid for gas......shit don't come cheap"
So that, is why I have the best friend in the world. She is ALWAYS there for me. I've noticed that a lot of younger Sugar Babies don't have a lot of people to talk to about what they do. The stress they go through. Or if their date went horrible they have nobody to vent to. If it went wonderful there isn't anyone to sit there and do a happy dance with them. I'm just glad I have her is all.....and she may be the help and support I need to become a full fledged Sugar Baby. -fingers crossed!-
-K
Then I would try to talk to her about it, being an SB and all. She would listen and it felt great to have someone to actually speak to. God knows I don't know any real SB's I've met a few online but no "real life" girls who do this. I told her about a guy offering to pay for me to come up to NY to meet him. She seemed in awe of that, "Oh my god....." she had said "Tell him your best friend wants to come along......" She of course had been joking. It was still nice to have positive feedback. Now I'm getting mail from all over the place! I'm not sure if I should be worried or thrilled to have all of these potential SD's. I'm a little scared all of these people are giving me their phone numbers and personal information. It's quite daunting but.......I like it. Is that weird?
Another guy recently messaged me saying "looking for a bright, articulate and cute young woman to be my sugar baby. Read your profile and i have do doubt we would hit it off. Would bet we share many of the same interests. Love the beach and the water. Use to own horses and was an avid rider. Love the movies, cooking (own a spice and extract company), reading and exploring new cities, museums etc.I had a sugar baby for three years and we had a great time together. Took her to Europe, Mexico and all over the US. On our last trip to Europe we came home on the Queen Mary. If we hit it off would be looking to have you travel with me." Now....that sounds amazing. Museums was actually what caught my eye. Not the traveling, (though that would def. be an added perk!) I would love a guy who's truly interested in History as I am. I responded, telling him I'd love to talk, (meaning the computer.....I don't think I'm ready for a guy I met online to have my cell number) and he gave me his cell number asking me to tell him all about me and maybe text a picture so he could see what I looked like. Again....that's something I just can't do right now. I almost feel like I'm leading these guys on. I'll tell you why I can't in the next post. This is me ranting about my awesome best friend now x3
When I read her that message she said "Wow.....that sounds really cool....someone to travel with. He took his last Sugar Baby to Europe? Jeez! If you go with anybody it should be him!" again, she was joking but it was still nice to hear someone tell me he sounded nice. And that maybe I should try to get to know him. Well today we went to the mall, exchanging Christmas gifts and using up gift cards (and I don't care what anyone says, gift cards rock! People always say it's the lazy way out. Nuhuh! I can get what I actually want, not what you think I want.) while we went there (It's about a little more then an hours drive to our mall.) I told her all about what I wanted and if I could try to achieve it. I was expecting her to just be a good listener, mumble a few "yeahs" and "I understand" just let me get a few things off of my chest. Instead she got into the conversation. Was asking questions, and listening to the things I had learned about SB and SD relationships. Then she even told me she'd take me to meet them, that way I had somebody there. We wouldn't have to tell anyone that I knew her. She could just be there, wherever we decided to go. "I'll take you and just be a spy....I'll sit in the back of wherever and get a newspaper and every time you guys look at me I'll put the paper in front of my face. Oh! and I can buy wigs! I'll change my outfits and stuff.....this is going to be AWESOME!" At first it was just a joke, and we laughed for about ten minutes. Joking about if the date went wrong she'd just come out of nowhere and we'd take off. Then she told me she'd really do it. Holy shit! What? Really? "Yeah.....long as I'm paid for gas......shit don't come cheap"
So that, is why I have the best friend in the world. She is ALWAYS there for me. I've noticed that a lot of younger Sugar Babies don't have a lot of people to talk to about what they do. The stress they go through. Or if their date went horrible they have nobody to vent to. If it went wonderful there isn't anyone to sit there and do a happy dance with them. I'm just glad I have her is all.....and she may be the help and support I need to become a full fledged Sugar Baby. -fingers crossed!-
-K
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
and so it begins....
Everything I'm doing seems to be new.....blogging is new, working out is new (really working out, not doing three crunches and calling it a day. You know what I'm talking about....don't act like you haven't done it.) trying to get an apartment is new...becoming a Sugar Baby....now THAT is new.
This may not happen, I could be bluffing. Making myself think I'll become a sugar baby, then getting to the point where I'm about to actually meet my potential Sugar Daddy and then, nothing. I've done it before, wanted something really badly, almost got there and chickened out. I'm eighteen, so I need to get out there....I want to start my life. Patience has never been a virtue that I possessed. If something is in my sights. I take it, I have ambitions and dreams. I also need to get hit with some reality. A good life, means security, security means money. That, I have none of. I have a job, I work mon-thur at a pre-school. I work with a bunch of two year old children. As horrid as it may sound to some people, I quite enjoy it. The kids love me, and I love them. Even if my day is spent reading "Froggy Rides a Bike" thirty thousand times, I like it. Unfortunately this job will only last until the beginning of May, and it only pays a meager three hundred dollars a month. I live with my family, so rent bills are something I don't have to worry about. I'm very lucky to have that, and I'm grateful. But.....I want out. My mother and I along, my stepfather and I get along, even my younger brother and I get along.....I just want out. I live in the middle of nowhere, I have no future if I stay here. I know this, nobody who stays here ever makes it. Sad, but true. My mother always used to say, "You become the people you hang around....make good choices in who your friends are....you hang out with druggies, you become a druggie. You hang out with drama nerds, guess what you more then likely will become a drama nerd (even though drama nerds are awesome and that's okay) if you hang out with dead beat losers, sure enough, you'll become one" well, I'm taking her advice. I've cut off all ties with "friends" from my high school. Only my best friend who's been there for me since I was eleven (and went to another high school) is still in my life. I don't feel bad saying this. They're losers.....and they will "grow up" to be...losers. Dead end job, shit house, more kids then they can afford. That isn't something I want. Ever. I thought becoming a Sugar Baby for a bit....would be nice. I would be helping someone, while they helped me. I'm not very open to the whole "We go on three dates and have sex" aspect. To be honest, I still haven't even lost my V-card. So, sex....yeah not really something I wanna put on the table. I get it's a big part of the SB/SD relationship, I wouldn't mind being intimate and doing 'other' things. Then there is the aspect of money. Do I want an allowance? Maybe they could help me get a nice apartment? Hell, I don't even need nice. A studio would please me for now. Am I supposed to demand that I receive X amount of money on this date or that date? It's all just so....confusing? I'm even offset by using the word confusing. It shouldn't be confusing. It should be simple. Right? I guess I'm looking for some Sugar babies advice, and just a few other "friends" to have. This blog could be a journey....one that may never happen....or one that turns into something amazing. Only time will tell.
This may not happen, I could be bluffing. Making myself think I'll become a sugar baby, then getting to the point where I'm about to actually meet my potential Sugar Daddy and then, nothing. I've done it before, wanted something really badly, almost got there and chickened out. I'm eighteen, so I need to get out there....I want to start my life. Patience has never been a virtue that I possessed. If something is in my sights. I take it, I have ambitions and dreams. I also need to get hit with some reality. A good life, means security, security means money. That, I have none of. I have a job, I work mon-thur at a pre-school. I work with a bunch of two year old children. As horrid as it may sound to some people, I quite enjoy it. The kids love me, and I love them. Even if my day is spent reading "Froggy Rides a Bike" thirty thousand times, I like it. Unfortunately this job will only last until the beginning of May, and it only pays a meager three hundred dollars a month. I live with my family, so rent bills are something I don't have to worry about. I'm very lucky to have that, and I'm grateful. But.....I want out. My mother and I along, my stepfather and I get along, even my younger brother and I get along.....I just want out. I live in the middle of nowhere, I have no future if I stay here. I know this, nobody who stays here ever makes it. Sad, but true. My mother always used to say, "You become the people you hang around....make good choices in who your friends are....you hang out with druggies, you become a druggie. You hang out with drama nerds, guess what you more then likely will become a drama nerd (even though drama nerds are awesome and that's okay) if you hang out with dead beat losers, sure enough, you'll become one" well, I'm taking her advice. I've cut off all ties with "friends" from my high school. Only my best friend who's been there for me since I was eleven (and went to another high school) is still in my life. I don't feel bad saying this. They're losers.....and they will "grow up" to be...losers. Dead end job, shit house, more kids then they can afford. That isn't something I want. Ever. I thought becoming a Sugar Baby for a bit....would be nice. I would be helping someone, while they helped me. I'm not very open to the whole "We go on three dates and have sex" aspect. To be honest, I still haven't even lost my V-card. So, sex....yeah not really something I wanna put on the table. I get it's a big part of the SB/SD relationship, I wouldn't mind being intimate and doing 'other' things. Then there is the aspect of money. Do I want an allowance? Maybe they could help me get a nice apartment? Hell, I don't even need nice. A studio would please me for now. Am I supposed to demand that I receive X amount of money on this date or that date? It's all just so....confusing? I'm even offset by using the word confusing. It shouldn't be confusing. It should be simple. Right? I guess I'm looking for some Sugar babies advice, and just a few other "friends" to have. This blog could be a journey....one that may never happen....or one that turns into something amazing. Only time will tell.
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