Wants and needs-Goals and plans

Wants and needs suck. I wish I could just have everything.....but life wouldn't be very interesting if you didn't have to work for what you wanted right?

Remember how I said I work at a preschool? Well that's still going on. I get paid three hundred a month and that's only till May. So, lets see, Jan-May that's 5 months, 5*300= 1500

A measly 1500 bucks IF I don't spend on things for me. I'm not talking clothes, makeup and a new pair of earrings. I mean, face wash, tampons, shampoo etc. basic necessities for any girl. I may be stretching it with the face wash, but it falls under MY needs. If you have perfect skin, well then.....I hate you. You also may not need that, maybe you need....I dunno, socks? Anyway, we all have our basic needs. Once a months all my needs will cost me around thirty bucks. Not a lot, but lets subtract now.  5*30=150 1500-150=1350.

Now I'm down to about 1350. Yay. So overall without spending on any "wants" for five months I'll only have $1350. That doesn't buy shit. Not to mention gas driving to work. (Which I now don't have to worry about because I don't drive. That's coming up)

So a new goal of mine NEW JOB BEFORE MAY. My plan? Look everywhere. I guess that's all I can do. I know you SB's may be reading this and thinking.......just explain the situation to a pot SD. Maybe he'll help. Well I can't do that yet. Meeting future SD's has to be extremely discreet.

Why is that? Well, I'm eighteen. Not even eighteen and  a half yet. I still live with my parents. Who of course have no idea I want to be a Sugar Baby. I'm sure my mother would have a heart attack if I was honest and told her. I don't give a shit what my stepfather thinks. It's not like he's never said that's the only way I'll ever get a man before. I'm mainly looking out for my mom in all this. She doesn't need to know nor does she ever have to. My dilemma of living there, is how freakin' hard it is to keep it a secret. I can't talk on the phone with my best friend about it in fear of someone hearing. I constantly delete my history on my laptop in fear that somebody will use it without asking. Then, what pops up? Oh only Sugardaddyforme.com. I'm paranoid that if I give an SD my cell number I'll leave it somewhere and he'll call. Then a family member picks up the phone. WTF do I do then? It's to much stress and paranoia. So, a new goal of mine is to MOVE OUT ASAP. My plan? Try to find a cheap place that isn't in the ghetto. The cheapest place I can find is a studio apartment for $900 a month. If I save up until May with my current job....I'll be able to afford one month. So, I need to get another job and keep looking for cheaper apartments.

Now, another thing with meeting a pot SD is getting there. Since I don't even have my permit. Go ahead.....laugh. I know, it should have gotten care of a long time ago. It's my fault and my mothers. She didn't want me to grow up, when I learned and read the stupid MVA books I wanted to take the test. She said no, and then finally agreed. Then it was just a thing that she put off....month after month of telling me "we'll do it later" or "we can't afford driving school right now" When she could have just drivin me down to take the damn test. It's also my fault, because I should have gotten off my ass and fought for what I wanted. It's about time I learn how to do that. This is my life, and I'm in it for me. Not anyone else. I love my family and my friends. But in the end, I'm all I've got. So, my new goal is to GET MY PERMIT. My plan? Hopefully I'll be going to tomorrow. My best friend may be the one taking me, since EVERY TIME, I ask my mother to take me she says "Okay....just let me do this" (four hours later) "Oh.....I didn't know you meant now....well I'm tired I don't feel like going anywhere, we'll do it some other time." Just to let you know, "Some other time" is my mothers code for "When pigs fly"

Now, as for my cell number being out there with pot SD's.....my parents still pay the bill. They refuse to let me pay it, I know why. They want access to my information. They can see who I call, and for how long. View my texts, they can see everything. I've never done anything wrong with my phone. I wasn't the type of teenage girl who got caught sending dirty texts or pictures. I never ran my bill up so high that they had to put a limit of minutes on my phone. I'm pretty good when it comes to using that little device. I'm not a big texter, I find it boring. So....I'm confident my parents don't go snooping through my phone info. Though they have before. Anyway, I need my own phone. That way if an SD calls me, only I know about it. Period. Nobody else. I also HATE at&t. Which is my current phone carrier. They suck. Bad. So, my new goal is GET MY OWN CELL PHONE AND PAY MY OWN BILL. My plan, get a new job, so I have money to do this. Everything costs money -.- everything is a need versus a want. I hate it......but like I said before....it makes our lives a hell of a lot more interesting.


If any of yoy Sugar Babies have advice to share let me know! Comment or email me. That'd be great ^^